I felt a few lonely tears stream down my face as I was in the middle of a wave but I didn’t want to think about it, at all.

But my mind kept wandering off and it was like a smack in the face every time I thought about the fact that Niall had left.

I saw James sitting on the beach, but right now all I wanted to was to be alone so I stayed on my board a while longer in hope that he would leave but he didn’t and I was exhausted.

-         Melani, hi. I heard what happened with you and Niall.

-         Please just don’t.

-         Come on, he pretty much unfriended me not much worse than being dumped.

-         What?

-         Yeah he called me when he touched down in London and had a breakout on me through the phone, and at one point I even think he was crying because he was mad and sad. So can we please talk about it?

-         We can talk but not about that.

-         Deal.

I sat down and felt the wind blow in my hair and you could feel fall coming which I hated.

We didn’t talk much, not at all actually. We just sat there on the beach. Didn’t feel like moving or doing anything. Until I broke the silence.

-         That night, it was a mistake, right?

-         Yes, well I think so can’t remember much to be honest.

-         Ha, me neither can’t really remember anything to be honest.

We bought burst out laughing.

*NIALL’S POV*

When I walked into Melani’s house her mum said she weren’t there. And after that my best guess was the beach.

As I walked across the beach I saw two body’s and one of them was defiantly Melani and…James. I was only a few feet away from them now.

My heart dropped, I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t move.  

*MELANI’S POV*

I felt James lean in and how his lips crashed on mine but I didn’t kiss back, I couldn’t, I didn’t want. I pushed him away.

-         Ha, I came here to say sorry. But I guess you’re already over it.

-         Niall! Shit, no, no. Why the fuck would you do that.

I looked over at James who just looked stupid.

-         Fuck off James. NIALL FOR GOD’S SAKE STOP.

I stopped up and hurried over to him with my board under my arm.

-         Please, it wasn’t me, it was all James.

-         Bet it was all him last time too.

-         No! Listen last time was a mistake such as now. Last time sure it was apparently both of us, but was a huge mistake and I can’t even remember it, all I remember is waking up next to James. And this time it was James, and I can assure you that it was all James! For fuck’s sake stop then Niall!

I’ve waited these weeks and hope every second of everyday that you would suddenly show up at my door, you can’t even imagine how many times I’ve thought of taking a flight in the middle of the night over to London but I was too scared  that you would just tell me to go back.

How many sleepless nights I had, I haven’t done anything, I’ve been walking Buddy because that was the only thing that still connected to you. I haven’t even been surfing till today. And don’t you dare tell me that you haven’t felt like this too because you have and I know that because the lads told me. But fine, walk off again. Go home. Don’t show your face to me again. But we both know you’re making a mistake.

That’s all I had to say. Bye.

I turned around and walked back to the beach to pick up my board and head home with the hope that the lads still would be there.

I felt I had on my wrist and it swung me around.

-         I’m not losing you again.

He put his hands around me and I felt his sweet lips on mine. 

THE END

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Kommer upp inlägg imorgon om ny novell osv. KRAM PÅ ER

Well more like, there they stood.

I rubbed my eyes to see that I was actually right.

There stood Harry, Louis, Liam and Zayn, in my room and I looked like shit.

-         Hi.

-         What are you doing?

-         I’m, uhm, sleeping, kind of.

-         No, I mean why did you hurt Niall, what did you do?

-         You guys too. Great. But well, he found out something that happened over a year ago now, and I’m not really proud of it, but he overreacted. And the way he did react hurt me too.

-         But you lied about it.

I felt a tear run down my cheek as I stood up with my cover wrapped around me. I stood out on the balcony with a smoke in my hand.

-         Yes I said that Niall didn’t know the guy but he might actually do. But only because I was a mistake, that whole night! And I didn’t want Niall to be upset. And I didn’t even know Niall back then!

-         We know.

-         Then why are you here and not him?

-         He doesn’t know that we are here.

-         So you are going behind his back?

-         Can I get a smoke?

Zan walked up to me and stood outside on the balcony too. It was just so it fitted both of us.

-         Here you go.

We had a proper talk that last for a few hours. They even ended up sleeping on my floor.

I couldn’t sleep that, not at all. All I could think of was Niall. I even thought of just running to the airport and take a random plane to London to go see him. But I didn’t. When the clock turned 6 I felt that it was early or late enough to go up so I took my board and sneaked out of the house so no one would wake up.

-          Niall please talk to me! But wait what are you doing? That’s the plane for Ireland.

I pointed at the gate next to this one.

-          I’m not going to Ireland, Melani. I’m going to London.

I didn’t say a word, I didn’t have words. I stepped back from him and just felt tears burning but I didn’t let them out. I just went over to my gate and boarded my plane even though I didn’t want to go, I didn’t want to go anywhere but where Niall was going. I just wanted to stay here in Italy and it was going to be like it all was a few hours ago.

When I stepped out in Ireland it was raining, surprise huh? Not really, no. I stepped out to the parkinglot and sat down in my car.

-          FUUUUUUUCK OFFFFFFF, SHIT, FUCK, MOTHER FUCKER!

I screamed with all I had in my body. And I did it all the way home. I first drove by Niall’s house to pick up Buddy. When I came home mum was there.

-          Fuck.

I muttered low beneath my breaths.

-          Are you already home?

-          Please, not now.

I took a few quick steps up stairs and into my room.

I felt the tears burning again and this time I actually let stream down and I went off, I ripped down all the posters I had on my walls, I pulled down all the stuff I had on my table, I pulled out all of my clothes on the floor. I just felt empty, none of that stuff mattered any more.

I ran downstairs.

-          James is he-

I ran past them both I took my board in the garage and ran all the way down to the beach. I weren’t wearing neither my bikini nor wetsuit but I pulled of my clothes so was just in my underwear.

-          Melani, what is going on.

-          Just leave James, please.

He said something more but I just shut off and swam out in the sea.

I got my mind of things for a few hours and it felt good. I pulled on my shirt over my soaked underwear.

When I came home mum was asleep on the couch and I went straight up for a shower. I headed out on my balcony and had a smoke with Buddy in my arms. I fixed all my stuff together that was on the floor.

The upcoming days I spent either in my bed or on a walk with Buddy.

About a week had passed since that day in Italy or was it 2, 3 I don’t honestly had no idea any more. I had barely eaten in days, but I wasn’t hungry so why would I?

I heard knocking on my door it was probably mum again, nabbing about how I should get up and get over him and to get a job.

-          Please just no. I’m sorry but fuck off.

-          That won’t do.

What the? It was a man’s voice, but I couldn’t quite figure out who it was, but I knew I heard it before.

I turned around and there in my door he stood.

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I woke up by the smell of breakfast. I sat up and looked through our room and into the kitchen.

-          It smells nice.

He turned around and smiled.

-          Well good morning.

-          Morning.

I dragged the quilt around me and walked over to give Niall a hug before I sat down by the table.

-          So what are we going to do today?

-          What do you want to do babe?

-          I walk?

-          Sounds good.

We both put some clothes on and it was raining but we didn’t care.

-          Melani, I have to ask. Why are you doing it?

-          What?

-          All the partying, the smoking how did you end up will of that.

*flashback*

It was after just a regular day. It was a really nice Saturday and I had spent it as usual on the beach. It was just I regular day. I walked home with a smile on my face, but as I stepped into the house everything changed. I saw mum lying on the floor with the phone in her hand, she was crying. I didn’t know what to do. I had never seen her like that. I pulled her up from the floor and into a hug. I pushed the tears back.

-          Mum what’s the matter? What happened?

At first she couldn’t speak. I wiped away her tears with the towel I had around my neck.

-          Mum, what happened?

-          It’s your dad. Nick, he, he was in a car crash.

From that moment I didn’t hear a word I just saw her lips moving and I let go of her.

-          No, no, no! He is my dad he can’t be, he can’t be dead. He can’t!

Something in my mum changed that day. She didn’t speak much to me. Even when stuff happened to me, she was just gone in a way. So she started giving me money. And after a while I noticed she didn’t really care or notice when I was gone.

I shoke my head and came back to reality.

-          I guess the smoking and all the partying was a way of seeking attention and for mum to notice me. And just forget for a moment that I was screwed up. But when you came along that changed. And I’m trying to stop smoking. And I have toned down the partying, I promise.

-          Melani, Melani! Calm down. It’s okay. It’s good that you are.

He stopped me when I was walking and put his hands on my cheeks. He dried away my tears with his thumb.

-          You’ll make it through, you’re strong and I’m here for you all the way. I love you.

-          I love you too.

-         For Italy?

-         What? Are serious?

-         Yes!

-         But I have nothing with me? Niall I don’t even have my passport!

-         Babe, I will buy you clothes and whatever you need when we get there and as for your passport it is in your bag.

-         No it isn’t.

He put his hand down in my backpack and pulled out my passport.

-         You’re incredible. Let’s go to Italy then, shall we?

-         Yes we shall.

-         And by the way I’m paying for the clothes.

-         No you’re not yes I am.

-         Nope.

-         Come on!

-         No.

We decided to meet half way and I’d let him pay for some stuff.

After a few hours on the plane we stepped out in the warm Italy, Venice.

-         This is amazing!

I turned around and wrapped my arms around him and pressed my lips on his.

-         Have you paid the paparazzi’s not to be here or what?

-         I’m not that famous, and no, it’s because no one know we were going here.

The first thing we did was to go to the hotel and that was not a low class hotel. After that we went shopping because I was dying in my jeans and knitted shirt.

I bought a pair of shorts and a tank top and so we started sightseeing, which wasn’t much of sightseeing, more talking and kissing and walking around. We ended up going on one of them Gondala rides through the Canals as the sun was going down behind the houses.

-         I love you.

-         I love you too Niall.

We small talked a bit and Niall hummed one thing gently in my ear and I must have fallen asleep not to long after that because I can’t remember much more.

-         Baby, come on, we have to go, you need to wake up.

I rubbed my eyes and looked up at Niall who looked down at me.

-         Oh, sorry.

Niall stood up and reached his hand out for me and took it and stood up on a pair of unsteady legs.

-         Attraverso!

Which meant thank you in Italian and it was probably the only word I knew.

It had gotten dark by now and it was so peaceful outside. We walked along the streets and I wouldn’t mind if our hotel would have been 10 min away or 10 hours, because everything, in that moment was perfect.

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I woke up the next day in my own bed, maybe it was just a dream. I looked next to me and saw buddy, nope not a dream.

-         Morning beautiful!

I hugged him tightly and cuddled up to him while I saw the rain fall outside.

I went up and put on Niall’s hoodie that he most have forgotten here. I took my pack of cigarettes and sat outside on my balcony. I reached for my phone and looked at the time. Ugh, it was only 8 am. I called Niall anyway I just needed to hear his voice.

-         Hello?

-         Hey baby.

-         Melani, hi! I miss you already. Why are you up so early though?

-         I miss you too. Don’t know, but I’m not really tired so. So what are you guys up to?

-         We’re in the car on our way to a photoshoot.

I heard someone whisper in the background asking if it was Melani and Niall must have nodded or something because a few seconds later I heard all of them scream.

-          HI MELANI!

-         Hahaha, Hi boys! How y’all doing?

-         Good!

-         Well that’s good, take good care of Niall okay. Don’t kick him to hard, yeah?

Heard some laughter’s in the background and Paul promised to look after him.

-         So what are you up to baby?

-         Sitting here cuddling with my new boyfriend.

I left out the fact that I was smoking because Niall wasn’t too fond of the fact that I was.

-         Oh really? What’s this fellas name so I can kick his ass?

-         It’s buddy and I think you should go for someone in your own size.

-         Well you can cheat and cuddle with him while I’m gone.

The boys got all quiet in background and I could only imagine the looks they gave Niall.

-         It’s a dog boy’s, don’t worry!

Sooner than I expected Niall had to hang up. So I decided to take Buddy on a walk and get myself some breakfast with James who I hadn’t seen in a while.

15 min later he was standing at my door.

-         We legit need to move from this little hole called town though.

-         James that’s what I’ve been saying all along!

We walked and stopped for breakfast at the first café we saw. Those two weeks didn’t go fast, and no matter what party I went to or how much time I spent with Buddy, James or on the beach I couldn’t stop thinking of Niall. And those two weeks had finally past.

-         And you’re coming to pick me up at the airport right?

-         Yes, I told you last time I called too, I am coming to pick you up at the airport.

-         Good, I just, you know so you didn’t forget.

-         The only thing I’ve been thinking on these past 2 weeks is you; so I don’t think I would forget to pick you up at the airport.

-         And I fixed for you so you can come in the private way so you can meet me before all the fans throw themselves at me.

-         Thank you.

-         I’ll see you in two hours then.

-         Yes.

I put my backpack on my shoulder as I closed the door to the car and locked it. I walked towards the private entry and it stood two big guards by the door.

-         Name?

-         Melani Jones.

-         Come with us Miss.

I did as they told me and I just walked next to one of the big guys that stood by the door just a second ago.

-         You can wait here Miss, Niall and his friends will come in a few minutes.

-         Thank you.

I put on my iPod and sat down on one of the benches.

-         MELANI!

I pulled the earphones out of my ears and I shot up and ran over to Niall, he dropped his bags and threw his arms around me.

-         I’ve missed you so much!

-         I’ve missed you too!

-         So, are you ready?

-         Ready for what?

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A few moments and a lot of cuddling with the puppy later we were out of the pet store and just walking around. We stopped by starbucks and sat there a few hours talking. But all my mind ended up thinking at was that Niall was leaving, tomorrow! But I still kept pushing it further and further in the back of my mind.

The clock was close to six when we were on our way back to the car. Niall had his arm on my shoulders and I had mine on his back and held the puppy in my other hand.

I sat down in the car and had the puppy in my knee. Still couldn’t get over how cute it was.

-         Thank you, babe.

-         For what?

-         Everything, today, the dog. You’re amazing, thank you.

-         That was nothing! I’d do anything for you.

He leaned over and gave me French kiss before he started the car and drove off.

When we got back to Niall’s his dad had gotten back. And I hadn’t met him in years.

-         What if he doesn’t like me?

-         He will I promise!

-         But what if he don’t?

-         Stop it, I know he will!

I took a strong grip around Niall’s hand as we walked in. We heard him scream hello from the kitchen so Niall and I walked in.

-         Dad, this is Melani.

He turned around and looked at me with a big smile on his face.

-         Melani, hi! Haven’t seen you in a while.

-         Yeah no, I know. It’s nice to see you Mr. Horan.

-         Oh call me Bobby.

-         Well Bobby, do you need help setting the table?

-         That would be nice, thank you very much.

-         I’ll just take the dog to the living room, so I’ll be right back.

Niall took up the puppy and walked away.

-         Niall really fancy’s you, you know. He talks about you all the time.

-         He does?

-         Yeah.

-         That’s cute.

We small talked a bit and soon we heard a knock on the door.

-         Niall can you get it, it’s probably Greg invited him over tonight before you leave.

You hear Niall’s fast footsteps through the house and then a door opening and closing, two people talking and soon they both came into the kitchen.

-         Greg, Melani. Melani, Greg.

-         Hi.

-         Hello.

He gave me a hug and then we all sat down by the table and ate. It was nice.

The clock strike 00.00 and I was dead tired so me and Niall said good night and went up his room. I started to undress.  

-         Well that was nice.

-         Nicer than you thought it would be?

-         Much nicer! But I felt so awkward through the whole night. I guess I’m just not used to this.

-         To what?

-         The whole girlfriend thing, never really done that. And meeting the parents. Don’t get me wrong I haven’t screwed around either I just haven’t really gotten the feeling with anybody like I got the feeling with you. I just, I don’t know.

-         I think you did just perfect. And I can tell that they liked you.

-         Thank god for that!

 We laid down in Niall’s bed and he put his arm around me and pulled me in closer to him and I felt his bare tummy on my bare back. He placed small kissed along my neck down my spine as I slowly fell asleep.

I woke up by Niall’s careful French kisses.

-         Morning beautiful.

-         Morning.

Before I even opened my eyes I could hear the rain outside.

-         We have to go soon, don’t we?

-         Yes..

-         This sucks.

-         Come on we need to get up. I’m going to miss the plane if we don’t.

-         Please miss your plane, pleaseeee!

I took a strong grip around him before I turned around so I was on top of him.

-         You aren’t going anywhere!

He wrapped his arms around me and got up and I wrapped my legs around his torso so I wouldn’t fall while giggling my ass off.

-         Let me down, Niall James Horan, aahhh!

I pressed my bare chest against his as he walked out of his room towards the bathroom. And as I looked over Niall’s shoulder I saw his dad.

-         Morning Mr. Horan, I mean Bobby.

-         Morning… I used to be young once.

He turned around and went back into his bathroom.

-         Oh my god, Niall that was so embarrassing!

He was just standing there laughing as I my face turned into a blushed one.

30 min later we were sitting in the car on our way towards the airport and I had the puppy in my lap and we decided to name him buddy.

Niall checked in his bag and met up with Paul and it was time to say good bye, which was what I had feared these past 24 hours.

-         I’ll see you in2 weeks then?

-         There is nothing I’d rather do in 2 weeks than to see you, both.

He leaned in and kissed me one last time and then a last hug, and I really wanted the hug to last forever even though he only was going to be away for 2 weeks. 

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-          Can you listen to me! It was before I even went to pick you up at the airport! So don’t you dare to judge me!

I ran up to him and into the house so I facing him.

I pressed my hands on his chest and pushed him on the wall. He looked down on me right in the eyes. He leaned in and kissed me. At first I was so surprised that I didn’t kiss back but soon I did. His tongue made its way to my lips. He wrapped his arms around me and turned around so he was pinning me up against the wall. I had my arms around his neck and he had his hands on my hips.

-          But what about your parents?

-          Chill, they are not home, they are away for the weekend.

-          Good.

He lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around him as we kept kissing and he started walking towards the bedroom.

-          Morning beautiful.

-          Morning.

My head was resting on Niall’s chest and I turned my head up to look into his perfect blue eyes.

-          Are you hungry?

-          Always baby.

Niall sat up on the end on of the bed and pulled on a pair of underwear. He walked over to the bed again and leaned in and gave me a quick kiss. I heard his footsteps in the stairs. All I could do was smile to myself. After a while I got myself up from the bed and put on my underwear and pulled on Niall’s tank top.

When I came downstairs to the kitchen he had made toast, egg, bacon and tea. I sat myself on the counter while he cooked the last bacon. He put it all on the table and then walked back to me and put his hands around me.

-          Baby, there is something I need to tell you..

-          What’s up?

-          I have to go back to London tomorrow…

-          What? But I thought you were leaving in a week?

-          I was but the management booked a photo shoot tomorrow at 12 so I have to leave tomorrow morning.

-           But I don’t want you to go.

-          Me neither, Melani!

-          Then don’t go!

-          You know I have to.

-          Yes…

-          Come on let’s have breakfast, we still have today!

He picked me up from the counter and sat me down on one of the chairs by the table. The breakfast was really quiet, which normally we never were.

I put my plate and my things down in the washer when I felt two strong arms around my waist and Niall’s head on mine since he was a head taller than me.

-          Why are you so quiet? I don’t like it when you’re quiet. I like hearing you’re voice. are you mad because I’m leaving tomorrow?

-          I’m not mad, I’m sad.

-          Aww come here.

I turned around so I was facing Niall.

-          Just kiss me you fool!

I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him closer to me and kissed him.

-          Come on let’s get dressed I have something for you.

I pulled on my jeans to Niall’s shirt. We went downstairs and Niall took his car keys in one hand and my hand in the other as we walked outside. The moment we closed the door the flashes blinded me so all I could do was look down on mine and Niall’s hands. I saw Niall’s feet and followed them towards the car.

-          Sorry for that.

-          Don’t apologize, it’s not your fault.

We didn’t drive for long till we came into the middle of Mullingar with all the stores. Shopping? Were we going shopping? I didn’t ask him, because he seemed to excited about the whole thing. He had a huge grin on his face as he took my hand when I jumped out of the car. We kept talking about what we were gonna do when he came back home in 2 weeks and how I was gonna bare to be without him.

-          Well I have thought about that babe.

-          What?

-          You said that you always wanted a dog, right?

-          Yes? Are you kidding me, did you buy a dog?

-          Maaaybeeee.

-          You got a dog!

I started jumping a bit like a little girl and Niall started laughing. We walked into the petstore and there were cute little puppies and kittens everywhere.

-          This little buddy is for you.

Niall picked up a small white little puppy with a black ring around his right eye.

-          Oh my god, Niall he is perfect. Well after you of course. No but oh my god he is so cute!

I was just standing there cuddling with it.

-          So you want him?

-          But what will my mum say?

-          I thought about that, and you can keep him at my house. I already talked to them. 

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-          Niall, I said I don’t want to talk about it.

-          Can you at least stay here with me?

-          I would love to, but right now I just wanna go home.

-          Okay. Text me when you get home, okay?

-          Yeah, see you later.

-          See you later babe.

He leaned in and gave me a small kiss.

I sat down in the car and I had no idea of what I was doing. I didn’t want to drive home but I didn’t want to stay here. But I had to go home, so I did but didn’t stay home for very long. I sat down in the park 10 min away from my house. I heard the bass from that party a few blocks away. “Radio” by Ed Sheeran and JME.

-          Hello?

-          Melaniiiiiiii!

-          Haha. Hi Jake, what do you want this time?

-          You said you were coming to Jack’s partyyyyyy!

-          Not tonight.

-          Please, I want you here!

-          Fine but only for a while.

I hung up and started walking down the street towards the party. It didn’t take me long to get there and when I did it was full of people everywhere. I said hi to a bunch of people from school and people in the neighborhood with a beer in my hand. I made my way over to the living room where I found Jake.

-          Wanna head outside for a smoke?

-          Yeeees!

He was even drunker than when I talked to him on the phone. I grabbed another beer and we went out on the backyard. It was full of people on the backyard too but not as much as in the house. We stood there talking for a while and soon I had smoked 3 cigarettes and my beer was gone.

-          Let’s get inside again, shall we?

-          Sure.

We stepped back inside and some of the people that was at the party earlier had left but still many people left.

-          Melani!?

I turned around and faced Niall.

-          So that’s why you ditched me at the beach. You much rather stay out with your super wasted “friend” and party. That’s great, Melani.

-          No Niall please!

He put down his drink and walked out of the door.

-          Fuck!

-          Good god, Niall please stop!

-          No Melani I get it you much rather get drunk at some lame crowded party than to hang out with me, I get it you could have just told me!

-          I didn’t even wanna go!

-          But you did!

-          I went home and then I went to the park to think and he called me again.

-          You could have just said no!

He turned around just before he stepped into his lawn.

-          But no, instead you went off with that dude.

-          He is a friend!

-          Did you kiss him? People said you did!

-          Yes I kissed him!

He turned back around and unlocked the door. 

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We only had 2 more weeks until Niall was heading back to London to record music with his mates. We spent most days together on the beach, in bed, in town, laughing, watching movies and if I weren’t with Niall I was probably out at some party getting wasted and smoking up all my cigarettes.

-         Niall is already at your room Melani.

Mum screamed from the kitchen while I ran up the stairs.

-         Hello!

I put my arms around his neck and kissed him but he didn’t kiss me back.

-         What’s going on, you seem not so happy?

-         Melani, I kind of found your grades..

-         Find or kind of looking through my room and found them!?

-         I’m sorry, so what do you have something to hide in here?

-         No, but You know you could have just asked Niall. I would have given you everything I have In here!

-         Melani I’m sorry but, about the grades, they are really low.

-         So?

-         If you don’t get them up you won’t be able to study on, and that’s important, Melani.

-         What are you my father? And if you came here to speak to me about how much I suck in school, feel free to leave.

-         Melani, please can we just talk about it? I can help you.

-         That’s just great.

I grabbed my wetsuit that was just in front of me on the floor, went down and got my board and then I took the car to the beach.

It was the worst weather possible for surfing, cold as hell, no wind and the rain hurt on my face but I didn’t turn back for that, I put the board in the water and went out. I just laid there in the water, felt like just letting be and float down on the bottom a few times but I stayed up on my board. I heard someone scream from a distance but was to in my own thoughts to really hear what the person was saying. But the screaming became louder and louder. I sat up on my board and looked back at the beach. I saw a blonde hairdo coming closer screaming my name. Niall.

-         What are you doing here?

-         I came to apologize. It’s not my business about your grades I just wanted to help you Melani.

-         I know, thank you and I’m sorry I overreacted.

It didn’t take many minutes until we headed back to the beach. We laid down and looked up and the sky. The sun was on its way to go down.

-         It reminds me of my dad.

-         What happened to him?

-         Can we please not talk about it?

-         Of course, sorry baby.

-         Don’t apologize, it’s okay.

We laid on the beach looking at the stars for hours. I had my head on his chest and he had his fingers in my hair. Around 11 my phone went off.

-         Hello?

-         MEELANIIIIII!! Where you at?

-         I’m on the beach.

-         But you were coming to Jack’s party with me!?

-         Yeah sorry, the night kind of took an unexpected turn.

-         Well can you come now the, because this party is sickkkkk!

He was drunk, like super drunk and I would have been to if I was at the party.

-         No, sorry. I gotta go okay. Bye.

-         Byeee!

I shut the phone off and looked at Niall.

-         Why are you doing that?

-         Doing what?

-         Partying all the time, gets super drunk. Every night you’re not with me you’re out at some party.

-         Because I need people and the alcohol around me so I can forget all the shit that’s going on inside my head. When I’m with you it all goes away and when I drink it all goes away.

I sat up and looked out over the water. It looked so peaceful.

-         I should go.

-         No stay Melani!

I stood up and so did he.

-         Please talk to me! What’s going on?

Riktigt dåligt kapitel måste jag ta och säga, men men... Ni måste även ta och börja kommentera, det blir inte lika roligt att skriva och lägga upp om ni inte säger vad ni tycker om det, så kommentera nu annars blr det inget nytt kapitel, ehehe ;) Haha KRAM

I got the biggest dorkiest smile on my face ever! I blasted “Stuck On Stupid” on the fullest and sang along the loudest I could all the way home. When I came home my phone went off and it was Sophie, a friend from school.

-          Hey you up for a party, or like I have to ask!

-          Yeah!

Why not, I was in a great mood and a party was always fun!

Sophie came and picked me up and when we came to the party it wasn’t that many people there. But it was nice, the most of them I knew from school or friends of friend’s and some I had no idea who they were.

Even though I didn’t have much for drink I woke up with the worst headache ever the morning afterwards.

-          Melani someone is here for you.

-          Yeah? Just tell him or her to come up!

I heard footsteps on stairs and I picked up my quilt and my pack of cigarettes and went out on the small balcony I had attached to my room.

I breathed it in and felt the rain to slowly drip on me.

-          Morning!

-          Morning!

I turned around and gave Niall a hug.

-          So how long have you been smoking?

-          A year, I shouldn’t though, it’s a really bad impact on my surfing and health.

-          Yeah, Zayn smokes too, he is trying to stop but it must be hard.

-          Yeah tell me about it. And the smell, I don’t know why but I just love it.

We stood out on the balcony and talked till the rain got really bad. We sat down on my bed.

-          So what are we going to do today?

-          We?

-          Yeah, no I thought?

-          Chill Niall I was joking. So what are we going to do? Movie, my bed, lots of food?

-          Yes please!

He put his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him as I leaned my face closer and closer to his.

We went down to the kitchen and got some food and candy and crisps and redbull, then we took some movies and with that I mean like 20 movies we attempted to watch and then we went up and laid ourselves in my bed and cuddled all day and it even ended up with me falling asleep on him.

Kort men hade inte tid att skriva mer och sen kommer jag ju hem på söndag kväll så n í får väl nästa kapitel på måndag skulle jag tro! KRAM

-          Hello.

-          What’s up?

-          I saw you with the police earlier what did you do?

-          Just one drink to, many and I kind of fell asleep on a park bench.

I made a little awkward laugh that sounded like a duck.

-          Okay, good thought it was something else.

-          Nope.

We sat there talking for hours. About his tour life and how it had been here when he was gone, it was chatting with him due to the fact that I hadn’t seen him in 2-3 years.

-          So you like it out here don’t you? The beach.

-          Yeah, love it here. It makes a pretty damn good escape from thoughts and my mum and a lot of everything, you know.

-          Yeah.

I saw a flash come right past us.

-          What the!

I stood up and turned around and there stood at least 20 people with cameras and pieces of paper to get an autograph.

-          I’m so sorry for this. Come one let’s go!

He took my hand and pushed away everyone that walked before us and I was so close to almost killing people with my board multiply times so I focused on Nialls feet and saying sorry all the time. When the people didn’t stop I did and everyone turned to me.

-          For god’s sake move! I’m trying to take a walk home with my friend here, just please leave us alone! God…

Some of them actually had some common sense and walked away but some stayed any way.

I stood my board in the garage as always and Niall was there with me.

-          So, uhm, yeah I need to go and get my car after I had a shower and changed, would you like to come with me? Not so fun to go alone..

-          Yeah sure!

We went inside and up to my room he sat in my room while I went and took a shower, I could hear him sing though and it was really cute.

When I was done I just pulled on a pair of jeans tank top and a snapback to go with it.

-          You ready?

-          Yes!

-          Good, leggo then!

The beginning of the walk was really awkward no one said a word until Niall fell and we both burst into laughter. I reached out my hand to help him up but he just pulled me down with him. After lying in the street for an hour we both laughed little enough to actually stand up and go and get the car. Niall’s fall was like the only thing we talked about the whole way there. We sat down in the car and I put on Chris Brown’s album Fortune and we both sang along and laughed at how bad I sang apart from Niall that actually could sing and he sang amazing too.

-          So here we are.

-          Yeah, my house. Do you want to come in?

-          N, no I think I gotta go.

-          Okay. Well thank you for today.

-          No, thank you.

He leaned over and we met in a hug, a really tight hug and long. After a while we both pulled away.

-          Bye then.

-          Bye.

He both sat there in silence looking at each other. He finally leaned in and stopped just millimeters away from me, I put my arms around his neck and pulled him closer and he crashed his lips on mine. When we pulled away I couldn’t help but smile and bite my lip.

-          Bye Niall.

-          Bye Melani.

Hoppas det va bra och hoppas ni har det bra där hemma! KRAM

The waves started to come down a bit and the weather was starting to get better as the sun started to come out and the wind calmed down. I laid myself down on the board and started to get myself into the beach. I pulled down the zipper on my back and pulled out my arms and let half of the wetsuit hang around my hips as I showed my whole upper body that was pretty trimmed since surfing season had started and summer break was on so I could focus more and my training than studies not because I studied much. I picked up the board from the sand and went over to my car.

-          Hey you!

-          Hi James, what’s up?

-          I wondered if I could get a ride to the airport, pretty please?

-          Sure, why not, I don’t have much else to do so. But I have to get home and have a shower and put on some clothes first.

-          Let’s go then!

It didn’t take us more than 5-10 min to get to my house. I put the surfing board in the garage and went straight up to my room, took a shower and pulled on my broken, baggy jeans, a tank top that showed off my skin on both sides under my arms down the where my hips started and my Obey snapback.

-          Bye mum!

I yelled as I grabbed my pack of cigarettes and smashed the door.

-          It’s Niall we’re picking up right?

-          Yup.

-          Good.

We parked the car outside the airport.

-          Go in, I’m coming, just gonna have a smoke first.

-          Okay.

I leaned against the car and pulled out a cigarette and the lighter. Wonder what he was gonna look like. I haven’t met Niall in 2 or 3 years. We used to be great friends though. The cigarette came to an end I started walking into the airport. I saw James standing close to the door where people started to come out. I flashed a smile at him as I stood right next to him. We talked a bit and soon a blonde guy stood right in front of us.

-          Hi.

-          Melanie, wow hi!

I smiled and he looked up and down at me and smiled back. He was pretty tall, well compared to me I was only 158 cm. His hair was fixed and he had baggy chinos and a tank top on.

He went over and said goodbye to a big guy apparently named Paul and then he went back to us as we walked out of the airport. The car ride home was kind of embarrassing though, I didn’t say much and neither did Niall but he kept staring at me. James kept in control of the talking, keeping Niall updated on how it had been back here in Ireland when he had been off on tour.

-          So anything fun happening tonight?

Finally Niall said something.

-          I’m just going to this party at a friend’s house.

-          Do you mind if I come?

-          No not at all.

The hours passed on and I went and picked up Niall and we were off to the party. He was staring at me again but I didn’t really mind, I just had to keep my eyes on the road and not on him.

We soon got separated by all the people. I had a beer, 2 beers, a shot, 3 shots and soon I didn’t even know what I was drinking, turned out like any other of the party nights.