YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 43, THE LAST WALK.
*ROSIE, NATHALIE’S GRANNY’S POV*
Me and Lucy took a quick few steps over to the park that was near the house. Lucy went on the swing but we soon heard Nathalie screaming for us so we started to walk back towards the car.
- Come on Lucy!
I took her hand and a few seconds later we were by the car but Nathalie wasn’t there. Did so go around the back? But she weren’t there. We went into the house but she weren’t there either.
Did she leave without us? No the car was right outside. I called her phone but she didn’t pick up either.
*NATHALIE’S POV*
When I woke up I still had a big black bag over my head.
- He, hello?
- HELLO???
- Shut it!
We drove for hours. I was hungry and thirsty and I was freezing but there was nothing I could do. For all I knew granny and Lucy might be in the car with me but unconscious but what did I know? I know I was in a car but I had no idea who took me or where we were going.
I heard them speaking really quiet to each other from time to time.
I couldn’t hear what they were saying but at one point I could hear that they sounded worried.
- Here will do!
I heard a husky man’s voice say and I felt the mini bus stop. I heard the doors to the back of the mini bus open and someone grabbed my tied arms and dragged me out of there.
- Come on!
I felt the wind pass my body and the man checked so my hands were tied good and then he pushed me over and I heard a few husky dark laughs and footsteps get further and further away and soon I heard the car engine start at drive off.
There were no more sound around. No cars driving by, no people, no animals, just the wind.
Thank god I had small wrists. After quite a while I one of my hands out so I could take of the plastic bag off my head.
I looked myself around and I had no idea of where I was. I was obviously still left in England. Because we couldn’t have gone as far as Ireland or could we?
I stood up and started walking back down on the road.
I didn’t have phone, no nothing.
It felt like I walked for hours but there were no sign of houses or people what so ever.
I was so tired and I needed water I was dehydrated but there was nothing.
I felt my feet getting heavier and heavier by each step I took. I was so tired that it was hard to keep my eyes open but I couldn’t fall asleep here in the middle of the road.
I took a misstep and fell to the ground. I sat by the end of the road and how everything went dizzy.
- H,h,hel-
It all went black.
*LOUIS’ POV*
Nathalie hadn’t called once all day. It had been more than 30 hours ago since we spoke. What was going on!?
- Louis don’t beat yourself up about it I bet it’s nothing.
Harry sat down on the couch next to me.
- Do you want a cup of tea?
- Yes please.
He stood up and walked off to get it. I checked my phone again, nothing not even a message and it wasn’t like I haven’t called her, did like 800 times.
Just as I looked down at the phone once again I saw Nathalie’s house calling.
- Nathalie, finally you are calling I’ve been so worried!
- Hello, Louis it’s me Rosie her granny.
- Oh, I’m so sorry I thought it was Nathalie.
- Figured.
- So you haven’t heard from her either?
- No, I’ve tried calling her all day but she doesn’t pick up.
- We went to sell the house today and then we went to have a cup of tea with Jay and the girls and then we had to go back because she forgot her phone and while she went into the house me and Lucy went to the park. After a while we heard her calling for her us we went back to the house but then she weren’t there. She was gone. But the car was still there all the nice things in the house. Just Nathalie gone. And we can’t find her Louis’. I’m so sorry.
I was speechless I had no idea what to say. It was just out of this world, who would do that?
- Don’t apologize, Rosie it’s not your fault. Stay there and call me as soon as you know anything, I’m coming home.
I hung up and looked up at an surprised Harry and Zayn.
- Why are you going home already?
- It’s Nathalie.
- What happened?
- She is gone, and she has probably been kidnapped.
Both Niall and Liam had come to hear me now too.
- I’ll see you guys when we have found her, okay? Bye love you guys.
- We are coming with you.
- Guys, no come on. Stop it you can’t blow it all off do it for the fans. And I doubt that Nathalie would even like a bit that I’m going home for her no stay here.
I didn’t even care of packing down any clothes I came to the hotel took my passport money and my phone and I were off to the airport.
*NATHALIE’S POV*
I felt this strong weird feeling inside me. I tried to open my eyes but I couldn’t. I heard voices around but I couldn’t move or make myself speak to them.
It was dark and my whole body was hurting.
It didn’t take long until it all went black again before I couldn’t even think.
I “woke up” again. The pain was still excruciated. And that I couldn’t speak or move a single inch of my body made me frustrated.
I think I heard granny’s voice. I tried with everything and my fingers finally gave in and I moved my fingers and squeezed granny’s hand It wasn’t much but I moved. A few minutes later I got my eyes opened just the tiniest bit but I saw granny and Lucy.
When about an hour had past I sat up with help and leaning back on the pillow on the wall
- How long was I out?
- 9 days.
- What about Louis? How is he? How is everything going?
- Why don’t you go and ask him.
I picked up granny’s phone and just as I dialed the number she took it.
- But why?
I looked up and by the door stood Louis. He looked destroyed and tired and happy at the same time.
He walked up to the bed and I couldn’t hold back the smile just by looking at him. He wrapped his arms around me and I breathed in his scent and him.
- You’re here. I love you.
- Of course I am, you’re a piece of my heart how could I not be? I love you too, Nathalie.
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 42.
- Baby calm down, what is going on?
- I know you’re supposed to forgive and forget but I can’t do neither of them Louis. I can’t forget or forgive him.
- Nathalie calm down, I know you can’t but don’t worry about it you don’t have to because he is gone.
- I, I know. I miss you.
- And I miss you too baby.
We ended up talking on the phone for a few hours.
I hung up, took a deep breath and started the car again. Even though I only had been gone over the day I had missed Lucy so much it was crazy. All I wanted to do was to hold her and just cuddle up on the couch and watch a movie.
- So Lucy how is day care, you like it? Have you found any new friends?
She nodded her head but still looking at the tv screen. Even though we were watching toy story for the 465th time she was so into it.
- I have many new friends, Hannah, Lisa, Mia, Marcus, Louis, Felicia and many more.
- Good.
I pulled her closer to me and wrapped the blanket around us two.
- I love you sis, always.
- Love you too.
Right before the end of the movie she fell asleep. I lifted her up and put her in her own bed and then I went to bed myself. I knew I needed to be up bright and early to go to the house tomorrow too.
I took a quick shower, threw on some jeans and a tank top, drank a cup of tea and I was on my way.
Once again I got that weird horrible feeling when I drown up close to the house.
I put up everything nicely and tidy. I even put some flowers on the table.
Around 12 the real estate broker came and talk to me about the house, much it was gonna be auctioned off for, took picture of the whole house, talk to me when he could show it to buyers and stuff like that.
Right now all I could really care about was to get rid of the house and all the memories of him from there.
After that granny and Lucy came and we went to Jay’s house for a bit. We only stayed and hour before we headed back because I forgot my phone at the house. I went in and when I came again, Lucy nor granny was there.
- Guys come one we’re leaving.
- Hello? Lucy! Granny, come on!
I went around the back to the backyard where there just was a lonely swing.
- Hello? Guys?
I went around to the front again.
- Hello?
I put my head in the car again but neither of them were there.
- Are you hidin-
It all went black but I was still conscious. Someone lifted me up and threw me on what felt like hard metal floor.
- LET ME GO!! HEEELP!
- SHUT UP!
I felt a hard hit first on my back and then on my head it all went tipsy after that.
Gud jag har varit så dålig på att uppdatera men jag har liksom inte haft en anning om vad jag ska skriva om så det har varit svårt men Matilda skrev att nånting oväntat skulle hända så hoppas att det är oväntat nog. Ni kommer nog fatta lite mer sen men aa, det är en början iallafall! Fortsätt kommentera snälla söta! KRAM
YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 41.
- Matilda?
The teacher called out.
- Yes.
I turned around and looked at her. She stared at me and I could feel her eyes in the back of my neck when I turned around.
I stared at the clock the whole class through and tried to focus and as soon as the clock hit 3 and my day was over. I pulled up my books as quick as I could and pretty much ran out of class.
What the hell was she doing here?
When I sat down in the car I catched my breath and picked up my phone.
I dialed Louis number but he didn’t pick up. But then I realized thet time must be like 6 am there. I shook it off, put in my favourite Frank Ocean Cd and went to Lucy’s day care.
- Hey Lucy! Wanna go for ice cream?
- Yes!
We sat down by the closest café and had ice cream, we soon decided to go see Jay and all the sisters.
When we got there Lucy ran off with the twins so me and Jay sat down by a cup of tea.
We ended up staying longer than we thought and soon the time had struck 8, Lucy had fallen asleep on the couch so I carried her out to the car.
- Bye Jay always nice to chat with you. Take care.
I gave her a hug and sat down in the car as we drove back to granny’s.
When I finally came back and went to my room I just laid down on the bed and feel asleep, I was dead tired.
The week past on pretty good, tried to ignore that Matilda, Sarah and Elin was at the same school but it was good. Met lots of new people, been talking a lot with Louis on skype, phone, texting, everything, missed him big time.
It was Saturday and my first day off school.
I pulled on an old pair of broken jeans that barely fit any more because I have started to eat normally. And then I pulled on one of Louis’ hoodies that he left me. I breathed in Louis’ scent and took a last sip of my tea and then I was out. It was not very nice weather out when I came out. I went over and started the car and drove back to our old house. Since I was 18 and dad was given life time in prison the house was sat over on me.
It gave me shivers just driving near the house. Even less park the car by the house. I pulled out the key and my hands were shaking like crazy.
I took a deep breath as I opened the door and stepped in. It was dark and smelled disgusting. And the feeling I got just by being there was horrible, felt like three months ago and I was waiting for him to get home and hit me so hard I couldn’t breathe. I turned on some of the lights and went upstairs. I wrapped up all of my and Lucy’s stuff that was left and put them in the car. All of his clothes and things I threw out on the ground along with some other stuff. I took all the furniture and put them all in the living room. I cleaned out the whole house and then put back all the furniture. I burned all his clothes and stuff.
I stood back and watched his stuff burn and I got flashback from every scar he gave me and I felt the tears burning on my eyes.
And just before I was gonna leave I put out the fire again, all there was left was ash.
I sat down in the car and the tears kept streaming down my face as I stared driving.
- Why? Why me!? WHYYYYY!!!?????
I screamed all I had. I pulled over to the side of the road.
- Why the fuck me??? Huh!? WHY?
I screamed and hit the steering wheel as hard as I could and the tears didn’t stop coming.
My phone went off and I sat myself back and tried to look at the screen but it was pointless due to all the tears.
- He,hello?
- Nathalie? What’s going on are you okay?
- No, I try to convince myself that I am, but I’m not.
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 40.
She looked seriously at me and I looked surprised back at her.
- You heard me. You don’t deserve him. He deserves someone like me, beautiful, sexy, smart and nice.
- Ha, like you even know what you’re talking about young lady.
- What do you mean “young lady”!? I’m 15.
- Yeah, well sweetheart I’m 18 so back off.
- No you back off from Louis or I’ll hurt you and you know what I’ll bring some of my friends too.
- Please, you’re 15 just walk away and keep playing with your dolls.
She gave me a death stare and then she walked off. I put my head in my hands but then I felt my phone go off.
- Hello?
- Hi babe how is it going?
- Well okay, haven’t board the plane yet.
- Only okay?
- Yeah some girl came up to me, who was a fan of you guys and I was well that’s nice and then well she wasn’t really nice. Haha, she was like 15 and went all “I’m bringing my friends with me and I’ll hurt you if you don’t stay away from Louis.” And I was just like go back and play with your dolls sweetheart. Ridiculous.
- Haha, but you’re good?
- Yeah, I’m good but I miss you guys already.
I was on the phone with Louis until the last minute when we had to shut them off. The plane ride home went so much slower than when went to the US. I tried to sleep but I weren’t even tired. None off the food on the plane was any good so I mostly listened to music, a whole lot of music.
When we finally arrived home in London I the soft, soggy London air hit my face as I walked out of Heathrow. Granny and Lucy was standing there waiting for me.
- HI!
I gave granny a big hug and picked Lucy up and gave her a big hug and didn’t let her go.
- I love you so much Lucy.
- Love you too Nathalie.
- Come on now let’s go home and watch loads of movies and eat ice cream.
And even bigger smile spread across her face and we walked towards the car.
As soon as we stepped inside the door we walked over to the couch and put on The Beauty And The Beast and both of us fell asleep before half of the movie was over.
It was Monday morning and I had just gotten all my stuff together. I took Lucy with me and dropped her off at her first day at day care before I went off to college.
I stood outside the big houses, if you could call them houses, more like huge buildings, whatever I should call them I they were big and I had no ideas of where I was going. I had map and that was all I had to go from. After asking for directions and quite a few stares from people in the hallways I managed to find myself to my first class, history.
The day seemed to go on pretty smooth, got a lot more stares from people walking to different classes, a lot of the people were nice enough to come up and talk to me too though.
But there was one girl though, or more like 3 girls that stood out I had seen them before but I couldn’t quite remember from where and it was one f them I had quite many classes with and for the first time in English were I really realized why I recognized those three girls.
- Matilda?
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 39.
It took us both quite some time to recover from all the laughter and tickling and kissing. But when we finally could stand up normally we both took a shower and changed some clothes and went to meet the other lads by the breakfast buffet.
- Morning lads!
Me and Louis walked in hand in hand towards the table were all of them were seated.
- Morning, heard you guys had a lot of fun this morning, eh?
- Yeah you could say that.
We had a long breakfast and then we headed directly towards a radio station where they were promoting their first single What Makes You Beautiful that came out today.
- So babe, are you excited to hear the song for the first time?
- Are kidding me, yes!
Zayn fell asleep after like 5 min as always and 20 min later we were at the radio station. I took a strong grip around Louis hand as we walked out and there actually was some girls there waiting for them.
After they had taken some photos and singed a few stuff we went in and were greeted by the people who worked there. We all got some water and a chair to sit in. Me and Paul sat a few feet away from the mics though.
- So who are you two that are sitting over here then?
Me and Paul looked at each other.
- I’m Paul their body guard.
- And I’m Nathalie, Louis girlfriend.
- Aww that’s sweet. How long how you been together?
- How long is it now babe?
I looked over at Lou.
- Well we’ve known each other are whole lives really but we became really together for about 3-4 months ago now, right Lou?
- Yup.
- That’s nice.
After a bit of talking they played the song for the first time and it was really cute and catchy.
- Babe, I love it!
- I’m glad.
Right after that interview we went on to two other ones, lunch and then 2 more radio stations.
When we came back to the hotel everyone was dead tired from going around to all these places. Everyone sat really tired and quiet throughout the whole dinner and then we said good night and headed to our rooms.
- Babe do you wanna watch a movie?
- Yeah sure, but just so you know I’ll probably fall asleep after 10 min.
I changed into Louis’ shirt that I sleep in and just my undies wrapped myself up in the quilt and sat down next to Louis on the couch front of the TV. Few seconds later we were joined by the rest of the boys.
The following days went on kind of like this one. We moved on to new different places all the time, new hotels, new fans, more fans and soon 2 weeks had gone and I had to go home.
It was Saturday morning and school started on Monday. No matter how bad I wanted to stay it was going to be nice to come home and see granny and Lucy.
I checked in my bag and turned to the boys and Paul.
- I’m going to miss you guys like crazy that’s for sure.
- And we’re gonna miss you too.
I gave all of them a big hug each and when I came to Paul.
- Thanks for keeping me company while their interviews. You’re pretty much the closest thing I have to a dad. Thank you.
- Any day sweetheart.
I gave him another hug and then went to Louis.
- I love you.
- I love you too. And call me whenever you get home, okay?
- Yes.
- Bye.
I gave him a last tight hug and a kiss as I went to my gate and started waiting to board my plane.
- Aren’t you Louis Tomlinson’s girlfriend?
- Yes I am.
Two girls who looked like they were around 14, 15 looked down at me where I sat.
- He is really hot.
- Ha yeah I know.
- You don’t deserve him you know.
- What?
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 38.
I woke up by Harry gently touching my arm.
– Nathalie? Nathalie wake up!
– Are we there already?
– Haha no.
I opened my eyes and saw Harry looking at me. I looked over to my left and Louis was still asleep.
- Here.
He handed me a sandwich.
- No thanks I’m not hungry Harry.
- It’s not for you. Open it up and put it on Louis head.
- His hair, omg! He is going to go crazy, haha.
I did what Harry told me to and now it was just wait till he woke up and noticed. We all moved around a bit I changed seat with all 4 of them quite a few times but since Louis was sleeping he was stuck in his seat with a sandwich on his head. Soon Zayn fell asleep too so now it was just me Liam, Niall and Harry left talking and we soon decided to draw on Zayn’s face. And he soon had a mustache, whiskers, unibrow and some other random words and stuff painted on his face.
After that we didn’t quite know what to do so me and Niall took something to eat and Liam tried not to fall asleep because well he knew shit was gonna go down but after a while he couldn’t fight it and he fell asleep as well.
But all three of us were way too lazy to move a finger to do anything on him.
After a long couple of hours of just talking to Niall and Harry, Lou finally woke up.
- Hi babe, how are you feeling?
- Why are you sitting over there?
- We all just kind of moved around a bit for fun.
- Okay.
He leaned his head onto Zayn’s shoulder and the sandwich fell down.
- What the?
He quickly felt on his head and he got butter all over his fingers.
- My hair! You ruined my hair! Really? When we get off this plane I’m gonna get every single one off ya.
- Dream on babe. You won’t have the nerves to touch me.
He looked at me with revenge in his eyes. He looked over at Liam and Zayn who was sleeping as well, he laughed at Zayn and then he had something to eat. The hours passed on and before we knew it we were all at LAX, were they had their first promoting concert/interview thing.
But first we all went to the hotel we were gonna stay at. And it was massive! Me and Lou shared room obviously. Harry and Zayn and then Liam and Niall and Paul their security guard got a room alone.
- So what are we doing to night?
- Sleep!
I put my bags down right as we got inside of the doors of our room and went straight to the bedroom and damn that was a nice bed. I pulled of my sweatpants and my shirt so I was just in my undies as I pulled the cover over my body.
- Louis come and lay down next to me it’s cold!
He came up to me laughing and laid down on me.
- Warm and cozy enough now?
- Oh yes!
I pulled my arms around him and gave him a kiss. He soon got off me and took of his clothes as well and laid down in bed next to me this time. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me gently on my neck.
- Good night baby.
- Good night.
It took me less than a second to fall asleep and when I woke up the morning after a had the worst head ache ever. I checked the time and it was only 7 am but I couldn’t fall asleep due to the bad head ache.
It had to be pain killers somewhere. I got up out of bed and started looking but couldn’t find anything so went into the bathroom to take some cold water on my face. And as I looked in the mirror I did not see a pretty face.
- WHAT ON EARTH, LOUIS FUCKING WILLIAM TOMLINSON!
I heard a laughing morning voice come from the bedroom.
- You are one dead man.
I ran back to the bedroom and threw myself at the bed were Louis was laying laughing his butt off. I started tickling him like there was no tomorrow.
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 37.
- What then?
- It’s this thing with dad.
- What?
- They might let him out.
I felt how Louis slammed on the breaks and the car stopped faster than I had time to react to.
- They what?
- I know and I’m just a bit scared that if they do well he’s gonna find me.
- Don’t, he won’t find you, okay don’t you ever think that he is gonna find you or hurt you.
We didn’t talk any more about that and the car ride went on really quickly due to all the laughing. When I stepped out of the car the sun was burning and the boys were standing outside of Louis’ house.
- Hello, lads!
They all threw themselves at me with a big hug. When we came in Louis’ mum, granny and Lucy sat at the table with each a cup of tea.
- Granny, Lucy!
I gave them both a big hug and we all sat down around the table we didn’t really fit so I sat down on Louis’ lap and he had his arms around my waist. Granny stayed for a few days and when she went home I stayed at Lou’s house, I had missed that place. Spent pretty much all my days there back in the days. Me and Louis had a great time upcoming weeks, no worries, no problems. We did lots of stuff, beach, shopping, lazy days and it was the best. But even though in the back of both our heads we knew that he was going away soon and I was gonna start school again.
We all decided to have one night together before the boys went to their promotion tour in the US and I went to school. We all had head out to Harry’s place.
- You’re coming to say bye at Heathrow tomorrow right?
- No, I’m gonna sit home and wait 2 more weeks until school starts just for fun. No of course I’m coming to say good bye tomorrow.
- Good.
Zayn looked across at me with a smile on his face. I looked at Louis and he was watching Zayn. The upcoming hours went quick in both a good way and bad.
I woke up by Louis’ alarm clock at 4 am. I looked over on my right and Louis was still fast asleep.
- Baby? Louis? BABE!
- Mhhmmmm..
He pulled the quilt over his head but I pulled it down again. I got over him and laid myself on top of him and stared tickled him and kissing him on his neck.
- Baby, come on. We need to get to the airport!
- Come with me.
- But school.
- You have two weeks left!
He turned around so I was on top of his belly. I put my head down on his chest.
- Baby please come with me!
- But what about Lucy? And grandma?
- They’ll be fine. I know that, you know that.
- But I don’t have a ticket.
- But I do.
- You knew I was gonna come didn’t you?
- Of course I did.
- Now come on, you need to pack!
- Ahhhh!
He got up and picked me up and tickled me at the same time.
After an hour of packing and loads of laughter and redbull later we were sitting in a cab with four other lads.
- You got quite a few bags there Loueh!?
- Hey some of them are mine!
- What?
- I’m coming with you guys!
A few nice shouts and welcome aboard and we were soon at the airport boarding our plane.
I sat down next to Louis and rested my head on his shoulder and fell asleep immediately.
YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 36.
After a few hours of kids screaming and people crying and bleeding and just everything I was allowed into Nathalie’s room.
- Hey baby, you can probably not hear me but well here I am. I honestly don’t know what to say. But why didn’t you tell me about the baby? Why didn’t you just tell me that you weren’t fine? Why?
I put my hand on her belly and let my head fall down on her bed as the tears came streaming.
- Excuse me Mr..?
- Louis Tomlinson.
- You’re her boyfriend right?
- Yes.
- Well first of all she is perfectly fine, and she can probably be out of here in the morning but she is not pregnant.
- What?
- Well she was, but she had a miscarriage and since it was so early on in the pregnancy that the body took care of it itself. So it’s nothing to worry about.
I didn’t quite know what to feel I was sad but at the same time happy over it. Kind of relieved because I know it would be hard for both me and Nathalie to take care of a child right and we only are 18.
- But then why did she faint?
- We are not quite sure but it is nothing serious because the test we ran came out negative so stress, maybe? Too little food, too little to drink, too much sun, something that worries her about her everyday life maybe? It can be anything but it’s at least nothing serious.
- Thank god. Thank you doctor.
Not long after that Nathalie’s nan came and I told her about that she was fine. We both sat down and had a good chat and I held a strong grip around Nathalie’s hand through the whole time.
The night past and it soon became morning. Nathalie’s grandma had gone to sleep at a hotel with Lucy and so it was only me and Nathalie left.
- Nathalie? Baby, please wake up.
I kissed her gently on her neck she always woke up when I did that.
*NATHALIE’S POV*
I had a horrible dream. But that soon flew away when it started to tickle on my neck. Louis.
- Morning.
I slowly opened my eyes to face a bright light and a white room. I remembered last night and I looked over to Louis.
- Do you know?
- That you were pregnant? Yes.
- What do you mean “were”?
- You had a miscarriage early on so your body took care of it.
Even though it didn’t mean to I felt a small smile creep up on my lips, I wouldn’t have been able to care of a child now.
- If I’m gonna be honest I’m pretty happy that it turned out that way.
- Me too. Now let’s take you home!
I put some clothes on that Louis brought for me and we sat down in the car to meet granny.
- But you there was something else though. Have you been stressed or having something that scares you lately something you haven’t told me that upsets you or make you worried.
I swallowed a lump in my throat.
- Kind of.
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 35.
*LIAM’S POV*
Me, Niall and Harry ran down when we heard Louis scream.
- What’s going on? What happened to Nathalie.
- We don’t know.
Zayn said with panic in his eyes, not that usual smile he had gotten while he looked at Nathalie lately.
- We need to the hospital, fast!
Louis’ grip around Nathalie got even harder when he took her up bridal style and carried her to the car. He laid her down in the back and laid her head in his lap.
- Liam you are driving!
I sat myself in front of the wheel and Niall joined on the passenger seat while Zayn and Harry took Zayn’s car. We got to the hospital and Louis ran away with Nathalie and we all sat down in the waiting room. Louis soon came and joined us, I had never seen him like this. He tears falling down from his face and he looked pale and just down.
- The doctor said that there wasn’t enough room in the waiting room for us so we need to go home and come back in the morning but he would phone me when he knew something or something happened.
All five of us sat down in the cars again and Louis just sat there starring out of the window.
- Lou? Lou? LOUIS!?
- Hmm, yeah?
He didn’t even turn to look at me and I don’t think he was really listening either.
- Are you okay?
- Yeah, no, I’m fine.
- You said no.
- Well, how am I supposed to be fine when my girlfriend is at the hospital for some reason I don’t even know. What if she dies in there tonight, Liam!
- She won’t, I promise.
Neither I, Niall or Louis said much more for the rest of the car ride and when we got back to Louis’ house we all went straight to bed except for Louis.
*LOUIS’ POV*
When we came back to the house I did not feel anything. All the lads went to bed but I couldn’t sleep not knowing how she was. I went to the bathroom and saw my hair everywhere possible, red eyes and a pale man. I took off all my clothes and I was just about to step into the shower when I stepped on something.
I looked down to see a white stick lying on the floor.
- What the?
I took it up and there was a small little red plus on it.
- Oh my god.
I ran out of the shower and up to my room where I needed to keep quiet so I didn’t wake up any of the lads. I pulled on a new pair of chinos and a hoodie and ran out for the car. I stepped the foot on the gas and I was at the hospital in less than 15 min. I ran straight into Nathalie’s room and it stood about 4 nurses and a doctor around her. She had a tube coming out of her mouth and one from her arm.
- Excuse me but you are not allowed in here right now.
- But she is my girlfriend, she is carrying my child!
- Okay but you need to sit and wait till we are done Mr.
I stopped fighting it and sat down on one of the couches in the waiting room which was filled with people who was crying, bleeding and so on.
I called Nathalie’s nan while sitting there, she sat herself and Lucy in the car as soon as she heard what was going on, it would take her at least a few hours to get her but I know she’d do anything for Nathalie and Lucy just like me.
YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 34.
He looked confused but really happy at the same time.
- Lou told me that you had a crush on me.
- Yeah so? That was before me and Louis got together.
- Nathalie, please. I love you.
- It doesn’t matter! No matter if I got feelings for you or not I will always love Louis more. He is the one Zayn!
- Please, at least give me a chance?
- I can’t.
- Why not?
- First of all I’m together with your best friend who I love with all my heart and second of all…
Should I really tell him? Every single thought I had just went nuts in my head and I started to feel really dizzy. I grabbed a hold on Zayn’s arm.
- What is the second?
I took a deep breath and looked at him.
- I’m, uhm, I’m pregnant, okay!?
- Wait, what?
- Yes..
- Have you told Louis about it?
- No..
- Why not?
- Because I’m not even sure if I’m pregnant yet.
- But here you are telling me.
- Apparently, yes.
- Have you even taken a pregnancy test?
- No..
- Well maybe you should do that then.
- Yeah I know.
- Let’s go then.
- Now?
- Yes now.
I picked up my phone and dialed Louis number.
- Hey baby, me and Zayn are going to the store to buy some more candy and soda.
- Okay, see you soon. Love you.
- Yeah, love you too.
We went to the closest 24 h gas stop. Took some candy, coca cola, a pregnancy test, pain and then we left. When we got back you could still hear the boys upstairs. I went straight into the bathroom.
*ZAYN’S POV*
- Nathalie, are you okay in there?
I heard her sobbing. And even though I knew I’d never be with her I would always care a little bit extra for her and have that thing between us.
- I, I, I honestly don’t know.
- Can you at least come out and talk to me?
- O, okay.
*NATHALIE’S POV*
I looked myself in the mirror and saw something that looked like the girl I would have seen in the mirror 6 months ago when dad still was around. I put my hair up in a messy bun and still some hair down by my face. I washed off my face with some cold water and unlocked the door.
When I came out Louis was standing there talking to Zayn.
- Hi baby! Are you okay, you look a bit pale?
- No, no I’m fine.
That fake smile didn’t really do it, did it? I pulled Louis into a hug and buried my head in his chest and breathed in his sent.
- I’m sorry.
After that it just went black.
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 33.
It didnt take us long to get to Louis place. All the boys came too and we decided to just have a chill night with movies and ice cream and candy and a lot of redbull which kept us all awake for way to long than we should have. Soon the clock hit 5 and none of us was close to sleeping. Louis kept telling jokes, Niall complaining that he was hungry, Liam was super into the movie, Harry kept posting random, weird photos to instagram and Zayn was sitting there talking to me and Louis.
- I’m laughing so much I’m going to wee myself! Be right back guys.
Heard Louis say that he was gonna tweet about me weeing myself and I just laughed for myself as I walked towards the bathroom. Just before I opened the door I felt a hand on my shoulder and I jumped.
- Good god Zayn don’t scare me like that. Haha
- Oh sorry, but I just needed to talk to you.
He took my hand and pulled me downstairs and out in the rain instead.
- Dude I’m going to wee myself if I don’t go to toilet soon.
We both had a good laugh before he looked seriously at me.
- Okay so what did you want to talk about?
- That night in Sweden.
- Can we please not talk about that, it was all just a big mistake we both know that.
- Well, I have to tell you something about that night that I can’t keep in anymore.
He took a deep breath and it looked like he collected courage .
- I know you were drugged but I wasn’t drunk and when you came up to me and told me that you loved me, I couldn’t stop myself, Nathalie.
- No, no, no! Me and Louis are just getting back to what we used to me and you can’t come and tell me this. You can’t!
I looked up at his wet face and hit him hard on the chest a multiply times.
He took a strong grip around my both hands and looked at me. He pulled me in closer and pressed his lips on mine.
- Nathalie you cant hide that you have feelings for me, you wouldn’t have said that you loved me if you didn’t no matter how high you might have been and I loved you since the first time I met you.
- So what Zayn? What if I might have feelings for you? What does that matter?
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 32.
Why was it always so hard to watch him walk away? It really felt like someone stabbed a knife right in my chest and it got harder to breath. The tears once again streamed down my face, okay Nathalie pull yourself together. I took a deep breath and lifted my chin up and turned away from the gates.
Just as I was on my way out of the airport my phone went off.
– - Hello?
– - I miss you already, babe.
– - I miss you too.
We spoke for another half hour but then he had to board the plane. And by then I was almost back home again.
Me and Lucy decided to have a movie night that night. Even if it felt good to be home and back with Lucy, the time couldn’t have gone slower. Every minute away from Lou right now felt like a pain in the ass.
Lucy fell asleep on my lap around 11 and I wanted to sleep as well but I just couldn’t fall asleep. I carried Lucy away o her bedroom and then I stepped into mine and laid myself down on the bed but still, I just couldn’t fall asleep. The clock went on and soon it hit 7 am and I felt that there was no use in trying to fall asleep now so I pulled on some clothes and stepped down to the kitchen and made some breakfast for everyone.
I drank some juice and the jumped in a pair of shirts and a T-shirt and a pair of trainers and I was out of the door. I plugged in some music and some Chris Brown, Ed Sheeran and loads of music came streaming into my ears and the wind blowing in my face as I ran, I ran for my bare life, even though I didn’t. I came to a small path that continued into the woods. Why did I recognize this place? I continued running on it till I came to this big tree with a big tree house in. That’s why. We used to spend every summer day up in this summer house, me and Lou. I climbed up and a bunch of our old stuff was there, no one except us knew about the place. I climbed down again and continued on the path and came to a beach. This was the last place I saw mum before she ended up in the hospital. The wind was still blowing like crazy and soon it started to rain. I got up and went back but this time it felt like it took my hours to get back, even though It couldn’t have taken me more than 40 min max.
- - There you are, started getting worried when you didn’t answer your phone.
- - Yeah, no, I went out for a run.
- - Just answer your phone next time, yeah?
- - Of course.
- - And thank you for the breakfast sweetheart.
I gave her a big smile and stepped out of my shoes and went directly into the shower my legs and hands were cold as ice from the rain.
When the hot water poured over me everyone single one of my scars felt like they got deeper, like someone put a knife in them and I got shivers all over my body.
When I got out of the shower I saw that Louis had called a few times and I picked up the phone immediately and just by speaking with him the hours went on like pouring water.
No matter how much stuff I did, the time still went really slow.
But after what felt like years Louis was actually coming back home for two months.
I stood there waiting impatiently for the 5 boys to walk out from where you got your luggage.
I soon realized I wasn’t the only who was waiting for them, they actually had a few fans there waiting for them.
- - Are you also here for one direction?
A girl with straight, long blonde hair asked me.
- - Yes, yes I am.
- - I’m Anna.
She reached out her hand for me to shake it, and so I did.
- - I’m Nathalie.
- - Omg, just like Louis girlfriend.
- - Yeah, I kinda…
- - OMG IT’S THEM!
Another girl screamed and soon Anna was barely breathing any more.
I first saw a curly headed boy step out with all his luggage shortly after him came Niall and Liam and not too far behind them came Louis and Zayn.
- - Boo bear!
I ran before all the other girls and Lou dropped his bags to the floor and wrapped his arms around me. I breathed in his heavenly smell and felt my hands trail down on his back. I pulled my head back a bit so I could see his face and his eyes. He put his hands on my cheeks and pulled me closer to his face and kissed me.
- - Oh how I missed your lips baby.
- - And I missed you, and your eyes and your smell and your lips and just everything about you Nathalie.
- - I missed you too, now let’s go home.
- - I thought we might sleep at my place tonight?
- - I’d love to.
He sat me down on my own two feet again and I grabbed his hands and one of his bags. I saw how that Anna girl just stared at me with big eyes.
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 31.
The water washed over my body. I tried to wash of the bad dreams on my mind but it didn’t work as well as I hoped it would have. I stepped out of the shower and pulled a towel over my body I let my hear just lay on my shoulder and water run down my spine.
When I stepped into my room a tray with breakfast on stood on my bed.
- - Grandma? Grandma did you do this?
- - Do what, sweetheart?
- - The breakfa…LOUIS!
I threw myself at him and I couldn’t hold in the tears.
- - I thought I was dreaming, baby I love you and I’m so sorry.
- - I’m the one who should be sorry, I love you.
We stood there hugging for quite some time. Louis pulled away and looked at me he then leaned down and crashed his lips on mine.
- - Come on now let’s have breakfast and talk before I have to go back.
- - When are you going back?
- - Tomorrow morning.
- - Good.
I pulled on some underwear quickly and then I just pulled on and oversized shirt.
We both sat down on the bed and just talked and laughed it kind of felt like back in the days. When we didn’t really have more problems than the ones I kept about my dad. I laughed so much my stomach hurt.
- - Nathalie?
- - Yes Lucy?
- - Can I join you guys?
- - Of course sweetie.
Louis pulled out his arms and Lucy’s face bright up in a smile. Lucy sat down in Louis’ lap.
Those upcoming 24 hours went so fast I couldn’t even keep track in time and before I knew about it we stood at the airport and Louis was going away for another week and I had to say good bye.
- - Come with me.
- - No I can’t Louis.
He pulled me into a hug and he pulled me in tighter and tighter and then he pulled out and kissed me.
- - I love you.
- - I love you too boo bear. Remember to call me on the right number this time.
- - Ha, I will babe.
And then I watched him walk away to his gate.
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 30.
She was really, really war and sweaty.
- It will be alright, I promise.
I felt my shirt getting wet from her tears and I couldn’t stop mine from falling.
- Shhh..
I started to sing I won’t let you go by James Morrison and I felt how her breathing started to calm down and she cried a bit less. She took a deep breath before she lifted her head from my chest and looked me right in the eyes.
- What are you doing here?
- I came to say sorry and more than that, because I will say sorry a million times and I will do everything I can to get you back. I made a huge mistake and I will never ever speak to Matilda, Sarah or Elin ever again. I promise.
- Good, baby I’m sorry I went home I just needed to be alone, and it was hard hearing you lie right to my face.
- I know and if I could take it all back I would, I really would.
I pulled her in into my arms again and kissed her on her head.
- I love you, today, tomorrow and forever.
- I love you too, Lou.
She laid herself down in bed again, I pulled off my jeans and shirt and laid down next to her. I whispered good night in her ear and wrapped my arms around her tummy and soon her breathing got heavier and heavier and she was soon asleep, even though I was not even close to sleeping. All I could do was lay there and look at her, why was I so stupid? I’d travel the world for her and still I almost let her go.
*NATHALIE’S POV*
I woke up and realized that my pillow was wet from sweating I had the most awful nightmares last night. I quickly looked to my right to see that Louis was still there, but I guess that was just a dream too. I dried off the sweat on my forehead and jumped into the shower.
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 29.
*ZAYN'S POV*
Louis face just dropped. He kept trying to speak, from time to time he opened his mouth but nothing came out. Ad I swear regret and shame was written all over his face. And the tears streamed down his face, because we both knew, he had lost her.
- - What am I going to do? She was and she still is my everything.
- - Go after her, that’s all I have Louis.
- - What if she doesn’t want me back then?
- - She loves you, she just feel let down and broken, so you need to go to her and be there ofr her and fix her. Come on I’ll go with you to the airport.
*NATHALIE’S POV*
When I stepped of the plane the good old London air hit me with a warm welcome as I walked into the airport to get to where all the taxis were. I walked through the airport and there was a face I’d recognize anywhere.
- - GRANNY!
- - Nathalie!
- - And Lucy! I’ve missed you guys so much, like you wouldn’t believe!
- - Harry called me and told me you were coming home, what is up sweetheart? Is it something with Louis?
- - Yes..
Even though this was the least thing I wanted to think or talk about right now I knew that sooner or later I’d at least have to talk or think about it.
- - So what happened?
I started telling her everything as we walked out towards the car and I kept talking the whole car ride home.
- - So he cheated on you and you cheated on him?
- - Well you see, he was fully conscious when he cheated on me, I was drugged so I had no idea of what was going on.
- - Sounds like you both did bad stuff Nathalie, so you can’t blame it all on him.
- - Granny, I’m not. I tried to tell him what happened and apologize but he didn’t listen to me. I didn’t know what to do.
- - So you ran away.
- - Yes…
When we got home I read a bedtime story for Lucy and then I sat down on the couch with granny and a cup of tea and started talking again and this time it wasn’t just Louis, mum, dad, family, the funeral and a lot of other stuff. When the clock struck 2 I was so tired I could barely stand.
- - I think it’s time for bed, yeah?
- - I can’t do anything but agree.
I gave her a hug.
- - You know you can always come to me and talk, no matter what sweetheart.
- - I know granny, and that is one of many reasons why I love you. Thank you.
- - I love you too. Good night.
- - Good night.
I went to my room, took off my clothes and pulled on my Louis’ t-shirt, which I always slept in. I went to the bathroom and washed off my makeup and then I brushed my teeth before I laid myself down in bed. I fell asleep quicker than I imagined but it wasn’t a god sleep though. Only after arund an hour I woke up cold sweating and having nightmares.
*LOUIS’ POV*
I stood outside Nathalie’s grandma’s house. But I couldn’t gather up the courage to actually knock or ring the doorbell. After quite a while I finally knocked gently on the door but no one opened it so I turned around and started walking towards my car.
- - Louis? Is that you?
I turned around to see a familiar face.
- - Yes, yes it is. Is Nathalie here?
- - Yes, but she is sleeping. But do you want to come in? You can go to her if you want.
- - If it’s okay, yeah.
I walked back towards the house and went directly towards Nathalie’s room. When I opened the door, there she was. She must be dreaming a night mare because she was always sweating when she had nightmares and her forehead was really sweaty.
- - Nathalie I know you probably can’t hear me, but I’m sorry and I love you.
- - AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, NO, NO, NO GO AWAY! DON’T HURT ME, NO PLEASE, NO!!!
She sat up on the bed screaming and crying and sweating. I hated seeing her like this, but I knew why she was like this, whenever something bad happened this happened to her.
- - Shhh, shhh, Nathalie it’s okay, I’m here, it will all be alright.
I sat up in her bed and held her. I felt her arms wrap themselves around me and I heard her crying into my chest.
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 28.
I felt my eyes getting heavier and heavier by every second. I heard a weak knock I the background but my sobbing and my tiredness pushed away the sound. I woke up by the sun coming in through the window. I stood up and looked around the room, it looked like a complete mess. But what did that matter, so was I, a complete mess. I grabbed the last pieces of clothing lying around and pushed it down my bag. I put my messy hair up in a messy bun and pulled on Louis’ hoodie and walked out of my room with all my bags. I checked out, put on my sunglasses and pulled up the hood.
– - Hey! Aren’t you Louis’ girlfriend?
I bite the bullet and just kept walking over to one of the taxis.
- - Airport?
- - Yes, please.
I gave him all my bags and sat down in the backseat. Just as we started driving off the rain started hitting the windows and I couldn’t help but feel the tears do just the same on my cheeks.
- - Are you okay, miss?
- - Yeah, yeah, I’m okay.
Hello lies! It didn’t take long to come to the airport. I handed him money and walked in. I booked a flight home and my luggage was so small I could take in my hand luggage. I walked through security and on towards the gate. It wasn’t many people there, but a few. I bought a magazine and I soon found a starbucks. I sat down and ordered a frappucino. A while later you got to board the flight, I was walking down that long hall on my way to the plane. There were quite a few people before me.
- - Nathalie!? Nathalie?!?!
I turned around and saw a breathless Zayn catching his breath.
- - What are you doing here?
- - You can’t leave just because this happened. He loves you.
- - It’s not just this Zayn, he has found someone else.
He just stood up straight looking at me like, he had seen a ghost.
- - What?
- - Yes, so bye. I’m going back home. Have a good time and I wish all the best for all of you.
I turned around and walked towards the plane. When I had finally sat down on my seat I just plugged I my music and drifted off.
*ZAYN’S POV*
- - What did you do?
- - Zayn what are you on about?
- - Nathalie said that you were with someone else, who, who might be better than Nathalie?
I saw him swallow and looked down.
- - She’s gone Louis’.
- - What?
- - She’s on a plane back home to London. She loved you.
- - Don’t you think I love her!? And what did she do to me?
- - You know why she did it, she wasn’t herself for god’s sake.
- - She doesn’t drink.
- - Of course she don’t.
- - Than why are you talking about that she wasn’t herself?
Was he serious? He looked at me like I was stupid.
- - She was drugged, someone put some kind of date rape drug in her drink are you freaking out of your mind, she would never in a million years cheat on you. And there you are cheating on her.
Dun, dun, DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUN!
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YOU'RE A PIECE OF MY HEART, CHAPTER 27.
I looked over at the doctor that was standing next to me.
- But that can’t be possible. I did not take any kind of drugs and I have never done so either.
- Well the tests came out positive for a date rape drug, which you often don’t take but someone often put them in your food, or in probably your case, drink to sexually assault someone.
I felt a big lump in my throat and I couldn’t find a word to say. My head got heavy and I got all dizzy.
- Nathalie!?
I took up all the strength I had in my body and opened my eyes and looked over at Harry.
- I need to see Lou.
I sat up on the edge of the bed with my head still spinning. But Harry Niall walked up to me and took my hand and said something I quite couldn’t understand because whatever someone said it just sounded like mumble. He sat next to me on the bed and Harry on my other side and Zayn sat next to Niall. My hearing slowly got back and I heard a few words and soon I heard everything.
- Nathalie, we love you. You’re like one of the boys but in a girl way, aha you know what I mean. Louis just needs time to calm down and realize that all of this was a mistake.
- But I have ruined it. I cheated on Lou with his best friend, some guy in the bar gave me date rape drug I should have been smarter than just accepting the beer he gave me. I’m so stupid, he won’t ever forgive me for this. I won’t forgive myself.
Niall leaned his head on my shoulder and I felt Harry’s arms around me, I leaned my head on Niall’s. Zayn stretched his hand out and I grabbed it.
- I’m so sorry Nathalie.
- It’s okay Zayn, you were drunk and I was drugged.
- Yeah. But I’m sorry.
- Me too. Louis probably won’t ever speak to either of us again.
- He will, he always comes around eventually.
- I hope so.
After a few hours of speaking and some laughter I got to go back to the hotel. I had called Louis at least 20 times but he hadn’t picked up once neither did he answer any of my texts. I was doomed. He hates me.
Niall and Harry gave me a hug and so did Zayn and once again he said sorry while hugging me, why did he keep saying that I said it was fine. I took a deep breath before I opened the door for Niall’s and Louis’ room.
- Hello?
Louis came out of the bathroom with just a towel around his hips. He looked surprised at me.
- Oh hi.
- Before you say anything and before I explain the whole thing, I’m sorry, I’ve missed you and I love you.
- What’s there to explain, Nathalie? You cheated on me with my best friend. You broke my heart.
The tears streamed down my face, even though I know I got drugged I did all those things and no matter how much I wanted to deny it, it was true, I broke his heart, I was an awful person.
- I know and I’m sorry but please let me explain.
- No, please Nathalie just go.
I saw the tears on his cheeks.
- Please.
I walked up to him and put my hand on his chest, I missed feeling his touch, his warm skin on mine. He put his fingertips on my collarbone and went around to my back.
- No, no, I can’t do this, you broke my heart!
I whispered sorry one last time befre I walked out and ran past Harry, Niall, Zayn and Liam that was standing just outside the door. I ran into my room. I threw all my stuff down in my bag with anger and sadness and then I just broke down on the floor crying.
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