When we walked out of the hotel there actually were girls standing outside waiting for the lads. Which I didn’t expect since they just got started. My grip around Louis’ hand got stronger, he signed a few papers took a few pictures.

-         Who are you?

A young girl around 15 asked.

-         I’m Nathalie.

-         Are you Louis’ girlfriend?

Lou looked at me with a big smile.

-         Yes she is.

-         Well you are very lucky to have him Nathalie.

-         I know, thank you. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

She gave me a big smile and then asked for a hug. And then we started walking again.

-         She was so sweet.

-         Yeah, she was.

We bought all kind of candy, they had so much here. We bought soda and some crisps and on our way back to the hotel room we stopped by McDonalds. We walked hand in hand back and there was still people at the hotel some I recognized from earlier and you could see that it had gotten more people there. More people ask who I was and some said nice things, some become I quiet and I heard someone say “You’re ugly and stupid!”

Even though I knew she was jealous and she had no idea that I went out with the highest grades in my school it struck me, no matter how much good the other said the bad is what you hear and take in the most. When we stepped into our room I didn’t say much.

-         What’s wrong baby?

-         Nothing let’s just eat and watch one of the movies, yeah?

-         Promise you’ll tell me if there is anything?

-         Yup.

Half way through the first movie which was the breakfast club it struck me that not even half of their fans is gonna like me. Nathalie step up your game, you know you’re better than that.

-         Babe, I can see that something is wrong, tell me.

-         It’s just silly actually, ha.

-         What then?

-         Just one of the girls out there called me ugly and stupid. But you know what I know I’m better than that and I know that I’m good because I went out school with the best grades in my year.

-         I can’t believe someone actually said that.

-         Babe, like I said it was just silly, I don’t even care about it. Because I know I’m better than that and she was just jealous or something. Top thinking about it okay?

-         Yeah, but you are truly beautiful, you know that right?

-         Mhm.

The movie was over sooner or later and we just changed to a new one. And just 15 in, Louis’ phone went off. He looked at it then on me, then on the phone and then me and then he looked quickly at both before he said sorry and stepped into the hallway to talk to someone.

I got up from the bed and pushed my ear gently against the door so I could hear. At first he was kind of whispering and then the longer he spoke the louder he spoke and he was soon half yelling half mastered himself not to scream. Who the heck was he talking to? I hadn’t heard any names but I could hear at times that he was smiling through the phone.

-         Bye Matilda.

That was all I heard, I threw myself on the bed again and seconds later Louis walked back in.

-         Who was that?

-         Yeah, you know, just work.

We walked for at least 40 min and then we stopped at one of the many bridges there was here. I stood and leaned against the railing and Louis stood behind me with his head on my shoulder and his arms around me as we looked out over Stockholm.

-         It’s beautiful here.

-         Yes, but not as beautiful as you Nathalie.

-         I’m sorry for getting so mad over this stupid thing.

-         Stop it, that’s over. Now when you actually is here we’re going to have a great time, yeah?

-         Yeah.

I turned around so I faced him and we kissed.

-         Come on, let’s head back to the hotel I’m getting cold, are you?

-         No I’m good.

He looked at me and lifted his eyebrows then he gave me his jacket. And then he picked me up.

-         Good god Lou, what are you doing!?

-         Giving you a piggy back.

-         Ahaha you’re crazy.

I put my arms around him and laid my head against his.

-         But I love you.

-         I love you too.

I didn’t take us long to get back to the hotel.

-         Are you sleeping in my room or am I sleeping in yours?

-         Well Niall is in mine, so defiantly yours. No offence to Niall.

-         I know what you mean, come here pretty boy.

The next morning I woke up with two big blue eyes watching me. My quilt was half way down my body so you could see my whole back.

-         Morning.

-         Morning.

I leaned in and kissed him.

-         So do you have work today?

-         No, not today.

-         Good, so sightseeing or bed all day?

-         Like you even have to ask, bed any day with you. But we gotta go get some candy, junk food and a few movies first.

-         You know me too well.

I sat up on the edge of the bed and just pulled over an oversized top over my head. It was open really long down on the side so you could see a lot of skin. After that I pulled on a pair of skinny jeans and we were off to the store.

He didn’t pick up the two upcoming days either. I decided to call one of the boys, Harry didn’t answer, Liam didn’t answer, neither did Zayn but when I finally called Niall he picked up.

-         Thank god someone is alive over there.

-         Hello.

I barely heard what he was saying since he was whispering.

-         Hi Niall, why are you whispering?

-         Well, you know…

-         No I don’t know. And why is no one answering their phone?

-         Niall, com on we have to get in there and sing!

I heard Louis’ voice from a distance.

-         Uhm, yeah I have to go, bye.

I didn’t even get the chance of saying good bye before he hung up.

What on earth was going on over there? Why did he whisper?

It had gone 2 weeks now since I spoke to Louis and about a week since I spoke to Niall. I started to get worried.

-         Grandma, I can’t do this I have to get over there and see what is going on. I’m starting to get worried.

-         Finally, I thought you’d never say that. I booked you a ticket yesterday it’s it to get there and home. And it’s one of those tickets when you can go whenever there is place on the flight, okay?

-         Okay. Thank you.

I grabbed a big bag and put down some underwear and some jeans and some tops. Since I started eating now I had gained some weight and body started to look normal again. Started getting thighs back, bum, breast and my face was starting to come back.

-         Bye granny, bye Lucy. I love you.

I took a cab to the airport and took the fastest plane to Sweden.

4 hours later I was standing in Stockholm. It was a lot of people and it looked really nice.

I remembered that they were staying at central hotel so I started asking people about the way and soon I was standing outside a big door.

-         Hello.

-         Hello, Miss.

-         Do you have any rooms available?

-         Yes, room 288 is that okay?

-         Perfect, thank you.

-         You’re on the third floor.

-         Okay, thank you.

I went up to my floor and sat down on the bed. All I wanted to do now was to see his face and to hear his voice and know what was wrong. I put my bag on the bed, changed clothes and after that I was starving so I went down to the cafeteria.

I sat down by one of the tables and soon a waiter came over and I ordered pasta with some sauce and just seconds later I heard a laugh across the room and I knew that it was Niall’s I turned around and well there he was, and Liam and Harry. I stood up and went over to them.

-         Hello.

Niall slowly turned around and looked surprised at me.

-         He, hello.

-         What is going, and tell me the truth.

Niall’s eyes got bigger and he looked right past me.

-         N, Nathalie.

I turned around and saw Louis. I pushed him slightly backwards with a push against his chest. I was mad but at the same time I just want his hands to go in under my shirt and up on my back, feel his fingers trail down my spine and all the way down to my legs.

-         Why aren’t you answering my calls!?

I spent that whole day inside my room, watching Disney movies with Lucy, talking with granny or Lucy or sleeping, just listening to music and stuff like that. Louis didn’t call once so I guess he was just busy with all the recording so I picked up the phone and pressed in his number.

-         Hello?

-         Hi babe!

-         Nathalie, hi! I miss you so much.

-         I miss you too. I wish you were here so bad.

-         I know, me too. I’m defiantly going to take you to Sweden one day it’s so beautiful here baby.

-         Yeah, I’d love that.

I sat there on my bed with the phone and we spoke and laughed for hours and soon the clock was no less than 4am.

-         I really have to go. Niall is nagging on me that I’m speaking to loudly on the phone.

-         Ha, okay. But I don’t want you to.

-         Me neither, I could sit here and speak for days just to hear your voice.

-         It sucks being so far away from you.

-         I know, it really does. But I’m really sorry I have to go. I’ll talk to you soon.

-         Yes, I love you.

-         I love you too.

And soon it wasn’t Louis on the other side any more, just beeps.

This is going to be the first summer I’ve ever not spent every day with Louis. We were always together and now that we actually is TOGETHER we are in two different places.

I put my head down on the pillow and plugged in some music. Sofa with Ed Sheeran came on and i soon my head getting heavier and heavier.

-         Good morning sweetheart.

I looked up and I saw grandma standing there all dressed and ready for something.

-         I’m heading over to a friend’s house for some coffee, just to let you know. And Lucy is down in the kitchen eating breakfast, okay?

-         Okay. Love you.

-         Love you.

She walked out of the room and a few sec later I heard the door to the house open and closed. I sat up on the bed and put on a hoodie that Louis left here for me. I didn’t bother putting on any pants.

-         Morning, Lucy.

-         Morning.

-         What do you want to do today, sunshine?

-         I want to bath outside in a pool.

-         Yeah? Let’s do that then!

After I also had eaten some breakfast, I had dressed both me and Lucy we made our way to the closest store we thought could sell these small children’s pools. It didn’t take us long either, the second store we went to had it.

It took us about an hour to fill it but before then we were soaked because of the water fights. It was a perfect size for Lucy and when I sat down next to her it covered like half of my legs.

Pretty soon Lucy got tired and cold so we went inside and dried off, by then grandma was home. We made some hot tea and I sat down on the couch with wet hair and just a towel and called up Louis. But he didn’t answer. I looked up at the clock and it was 7 pm so he should probably pick up.

I called about an hour later but, same thing.

Another hour later and the clock had past 9 and I called again and it was the same.

What was going on with him?

When I woke up I heard Lucy out playing in the garden and I also heard granny’s voice.

I sat up on the big bed and looked over the other side of it where Louis perfect shaped body had laid. I missed him so much and I hadn’t even been away from him 24 hours. Louis was mad for saying that this was going to work. I’m gonna start to cry and beg him to come back, not that desperately but close.

I laid down on the bed with my eyes looking straight up in the ceiling and pulled the quilt back over my body. I heard the front door getting opened and closed and I heard their voices speaking.

Today I felt like just doing nothing, lay in bed all day, coffee, ice cream, Louis. Oh, I wish!

-         Nathalie are you awake?

-         Yes, do you need help with anything?

-         No, I just heard something upstairs and wanted to check so it was you , and not a thief.

Even though she said thief, we both knew that’s not what she meant. He meant my dad.

-         Not to be mean or anything can you just bring up a cup of coffee for me granny? I can go down and get it if you want.

-         No, just stay wherever you are and I’ll come with some nice coffee, sweetheart.

-         Thank you so, so, so much!

Not even 10 min later she came up, gave me a good morning hug and a cup of coffee.

I swept the quilt around me and walked up to the window, still with the coffee cup in my hand. I put it down by the window and opened it up. It was quite a bad weather actually. Looked like it was about to start to rain any minute, just like my tears.

I took up my mug again stood there and watched everything. Just taking in fresh air and nature.

The days in Paris past on quickly and we all had a great time, even the lads came over a few days. And after that Louis and the lads were going away to record their first songs.

We were standing at the airport in Paris, me granny and Lucy were going back to the UK while Louis, Harry, Niall, Liam and Zayn were going to Sweden to record music.

I gave all of the boys a real hug and a good bye. And then I came to Louis. I didn’t want to say good bye, it was the thing I wanted to last on this earth right now. I felt a lonely tear stream down my cheek and before it touched my chin Louis dried it away with his thumb.

-         I don’t want to go. I can stay here with you. And the lads can go.

-         Stop it Lou, I know that you want to go and you should go. I want you here but that is not important. Go.

He put his hands on my cheeks and looked me in the eyes and I saw that they were teary.

-         Baby, don’t cry I’m one phone call away, or a text or a plane. We’ll make it for a few weeks. It’s no biggie, right?

-         Mhm..

He looked down on the floor.

-         Look at me. I love you.

-         I love you too.

I put arms around him and went up on my toes. He leaned in the last part and his lips crashed on mine.

-         Good bye.

-         Bye.

He let go and his hand slowly let go of me. And then I just saw his back slowly walking away towards the gate. And it hit me. I’m not going to see him for 3 weeks.

I took granny’s hand and grabbed Lucy and but her on my waist as we walked off to our gate.

I fell asleep the moment I sat down on the plane and I felt Lucy’s head get heavy on my shoulder.

The next time I woke up we were back in London and we had a few hours car ride ahead of us.

I woke up in an empty bed without Louis. I took up the quilt that was next to me and wrapped it around my naked body and walked over to the massiv window in our massive bedroom. I looked out of the window and it was sunny outside, people walking in the side walk, cars a few bikes, café’s in every corner, street artists. Paris was beautiful.

-         Morning!

I turned around and saw Lou in shorts and a t-shirt, he had breakfast with him.

-         Cereal and milk for you!

-         Aww, my favourite!

He gave me a small kiss and then sat down on the messy bed with the rest of the breakfast.

-         So what are we going to do today?

-         I was thinking of just exploring Paris, mon amour?

-         Sounds good to me!

We had our breakfast in bed and then we both got ready and even though it took quite a lot of more time for me, we got ready and stepped out onto the sunny streets of Paris.

The hours passed on and after we had done some shopping, a lot of talking stopped by a café, we went to the Eiffel tower and a lot more, we went back to the hotel were we both just fell down onto the bed.

None of us even bothered of taking any clothes of, and we fell asleep as soon as we turned the lights off.

My whole body jumped and I woke up by the sound of a phone ringing.

-         Lou, the phone.

-         Mmmhhhmmmm

I looked over at him and he was fast asleep.

I crawled myself out of bed and through the whole hotel room and after what felt like 50 hours I found my phone.

It was a private number and it had called like 8 times by now.

I was just about to go back to bed when the phone went off again.

-         Hello?

I said with a sleepy voice.

-         Nathalie?

It was a dark weird voice and I couldn’t really recognize it to anyone I knew.

-         Who is this?

When we finally sat down on the plane I leaned my head on Louis’ shoulder and I quickly fell asleep.

As we stepped out in the black Paris I grabbed his hand and we took a cab over to the hotel. And it was not a cheap hotel it was so big and everything was like, it felt like I wasn’t allowed to touch anything.

-         Babe no offence but how can you afford this place?

-         That’s kind of one of the reasons I took you here.

-         Well tell me?

-         Yeah, but let’s just get to our room first okay?

-         Yup.

I kissed him lightly and sat down in the lobby while he checked in to our hotel room and got the key.

-         So which floor is our room on?

-         Top floor.

When we stepped into our room I couldn’t believe it, it was amazing and huge and white and open. I just stood there speechless.

-         This is, amazing. Now tell me why we’re here!

We walked over to the bed and sat down.

-         You know Zayn, Liam, Harry and Niall right?

-         Yeah I’ve meet them a few times.

-         Well, we entered this singing contest thing and if you won you’d get signed by Simon Cowell.

-         And?

-         And we won!

-         That’s amazing!!

I jumped at him and we both fell back onto the bed.

-         I’m so proud of you and I promise to support you no matter how poor you get and no matter how bad your music is. Ahaha.

-         Haha, Thank you! No but seriously Nathalie, you have no idea how glad that makes me.

He took a string of my hair and put it behind my ear. He sat down his elbows and his face was only inches away from mine and I leaned forward the last bit and my lips crashed on his.

My whole body was on top of his and his fingers was trembling on my back inside of my top.

-         I love you.

-         I love you too.

I felt his fingers slowly pulling up my shirt and for a sec we stopped kissing when he pulled it over my head. Soon his was gone as well.

He unbuttoned his pants and one of his hands came back to my neck and the other one he held my hand

-         What?

-         Well there is something I wanted to ask you?

-         Yeah, shoot?

-         Uhm, would you like, uhm, go to Paris with me?

-         Are you serious?

-         Yes.

-         I WOULD LOVE TOO.

I gave him a big hug and he looked so relieved.

-         So when are we going babe?

-         Whenever you want?

-         Tonight?

-         Works for me.

-         Good let’s go then.

We both stood up and he had put half of his foot inside the house when I grabbed his arm and pulled him back a bit.

-         But what about Lucy?

-         She is going to be perfectly fine Nathalie, she got your grandma.

-         Yeah. Okay, you’re right.

He took my hand and walked in. we told grandma and I sat down next to Lucy. Even though I knew she was safe here it would be the first time I left her like this since mum died. Now I’m going to be out of the country. What if something happened?

-         Lucy, me and Louis are going away for a few days.

-         Like mommy?

-         No, god no. We are coming back in a few days again so grandma is taking care of you while I’m gone.

-         Okay, you promise?

-         I promise on my life.

I pulled her in for a hug and kissed her on her head.

-         I love you.

-         I love you too.

Lucy followed me into mine and Louis’ room and she sat down on the bed.

-         Where are you going?

-         Paris.

-         Where is that?

-         Just a few hours away.

Me and Louis packed down all the stuff that we needed and then we said by to grandma and Lucy and then we sat down in Louis car and drove off towards Heathrow. I was just so tired and after just a few min in the car I was fast asleep.

-         Babe, babe! We’re there.

I turned my head and faced him where he stood by the door of the car.

I stepped out in the awful weather on wobbly legs. Lou’ took my hand in my other I had my handbag and my suitcase.

We walked into Heathrow and it was loads of people everywhere, either going home or away to some foreign country.

We bought tickets, walked through security check and then continued on to our gate. The plane were leaving in about 1 hour so we sat down and spoke about everything.